Though it's not actually one little word, this is going to be my one little word for 2016. It's my new mantra headed into the new year. I'm always playing it safe. I hold my tongue a lot because I worry I might sound weird or grumpy. I buy things that the media or the stores tell me I should buy because I'm not 100% sure what I like so I go along with what everyone else likes. I stay away from Match.com because I have no idea how to be me online and be the charming and flirty girl that all guys supposedly want. Honestly, that's the struggle. (If Prince Charmings fell from the sky, I'd be all set!) I don't talk a lot about myself, because it's so much easier to listen to other people talk. The social awkwardness that most people swear I don't have is totally real and a major bummer. In 2016 I want that to change. I want others to see me for who I am. I want to have ideas and opinions. I want to like what I like and see what I want to see. Even if I do say so myself, that person I already am is pretty great. So why not show her off?
It's almost the dreaded New Year, and again just as in every year, I'm overthinking everything. I didn't do nearly half what I wanted to in 2015. I didn't follow any of my resolutions. I'm still not engaged to Prince Charming - heck I'm not even dating Prince Charming. I still don't know how to Project Life. I still don't know how to even live life. And 2016 is starting in 3 days so I now have to determine what resolutions to try and fail miserably at next year. It's quite the vicious cycle... I'm assuming I'm not the only person that goes through this every year. A friend of mine yelled at me the other day for actually setting resolutions. She said she never resolved to do anything because she'd rather just do the things when she thinks of them rather than giving herself a time limit. At the time I thought it was ridiculous, but now that it's crunch time, she might actually have a point. Of course, that doesn't actually stop me from making resolutions - I already have. There's a list in my head of all the things I want to do in 2016. It's a fairly long list, if I'm being honest. But new years bring new beginnings, don't they? What better time to make big changes than in the start of a brand new year? They may not last forever, but they give you something to work towards, and that's never a bad thing. So here's to new years resolutions! They drive you nuts, but they may also bring love and fun into your life too (one could hope, anyway - paging Prince Charming...)