As I've said multiple times, I avoid things that make are going to make me cry, like the plague. Any book or television show or theater piece that may have something just ever so slightly tear-inducing and I'm out. It's not fun for me. Whenever I talk to friends about this, they don't understand. To them, crying about something entertaining is cathartic. They feel much better after letting it all out in a crying session. This is not the case for me.
This evening, because This is Us is the best show on television, I watched last night's heart-wrenching episode. I knew full well that it was going to kill me. I read some things today to prepare myself, because had I not, it would have made the whole experience so much worse. Not that it wasn't bad enough already. I cried for a good 2/3 of the episode. It was so moving and so heartbreaking. I love those characters so much that it's just so difficult to watch sometimes.
Now, if I were my friends, I'd be feeling great right now. But I'm not. I'm me and I feel awful. My eyes are puffy. All they want to do is close and sleep even though my brain wants to read. My nose is stuffy. And I'm still thinking about all the sad things I watched 3 hours ago and still feeling sad about them. Why exactly would anyone want to do this on purpose?
I'll stick with comedy instead if no body minds. At least laughing from crying doesn't create the same puffy, stuffy and weepy effects.
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